Dilemma...
You have two opportunities.
One - Kind of has a bit of glamour/prestige attached to it but not much more. Financial growth and personal advancement looks bleak here. You're mentally drained and constantly questioning what the fuck you're doing there and what is it that you're trying to prove.
Two - No glamour whatsoever. In fact, this opportunity is the anti-glam. But its genuine. And its built on ideas you're accustomed to and respect. Even though you aren't particularly interested, there is room for growth here and a promise of stability for the taking. Most notably, you don't feel at war, but at peace in a lot of ways.
The outside world (the general public) will say that you're fuckin insane to even consider Opp Two. Your world (your friends and family) are all FuckYeahOppTwo.tumblr.com and shit.
You... are too indecisive, uncertain and afraid to make a decision either way. And then, like clockwork, a simple decision becomes a larger than life self-debate about what it is that you really want in life in general. Sure, you've been here more times than anyone else you know but this time its different. This time you actually sorta feel a tiny bit of pressure to actually come up with a legit answer. Like, for real.
And you can't.
And it seems like subconsciously, your mind/body/spirit/whateverthefuck is working against you. Like they don't wanna fuckin help you figure the shit out!! Like you try to sit down, draw it out, think about it and within 30 seconds, your watching old episodes of Pepper Ann on YouTube.
And in the end, you just tricked yourself into avoiding dealing with a multitude of inconvenient, thought-provoking, important real-life shit that may have made your life that much simpler.
...And you still don't know which Opp is best for you
Knew the toll, but I would not pay
...thanks ms badu
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